Bad day

When I have a bad day I want D. I want him to cuddle me and hold me and make me laugh and tell me it will be okay and take my mind off it the way he used to do.
I remember once having a bad day because of a friends asshole dad. I wanted nothing more than D, for him to make it better. I tried to get a hold of him, but couldn't. He ended up showing up where I was anyway. But for some reason I was a bitch. I guess he wasn't saying he cared in words and actions weren't enough so I was mega bitchy. (Normal for me with him). I wouldn't let him comfort me, which he was willing to do. And when he found out why I was upset he was really mad. (Not at me, at the friends dad).
I also remember once a guy called me a bitch and he lost it. Was going to fight him. I had to take him outside and away from the guy so he would calm down.

Odd memory

Watching tv and suddenly remembered the oddest thing about him.

Scary

Heard that some psycho killed a bunch of people in an area that he has family and visits often, he had talked about moving there. Looked it up and he was not among the victims. So scary, especially when I have no idea where he is. He could be anywhere.