Him

While out today I walked past a guy who looked a bit like him. Since it was brief, came up suddenly and the guy was wearing sunglasses I can't say for sure.
This is twice now I have seen guys who look a lot like him.
This one, as far as I could tell paid no attention to me unlike the other one.

Caring

I feel like people don't care. Maybe it is just me being over sensitive. I really need someone to make me their priority.

Briefly

I thought I saw him this weekend, but it was so brief I can't be sure.
It kinda looked like him, but also didn't look enough like him to be him so I am not sure either way.
The way they guy was looking at me makes me think it was him. Why look at me that way, that intently and for that long if it wasn't him?

Memories

The other day I suddenly had an odd memory about him. Something about taking him by his friends house once and the way I was referred to by him and his friend.
Then later, not the same day, I kinda got upset over him. I hate that because of other issues he can still hurt me, even if technically it is just me overthinking stupid things about him.

Bad day

When I have a bad day I want D. I want him to cuddle me and hold me and make me laugh and tell me it will be okay and take my mind off it the way he used to do.
I remember once having a bad day because of a friends asshole dad. I wanted nothing more than D, for him to make it better. I tried to get a hold of him, but couldn't. He ended up showing up where I was anyway. But for some reason I was a bitch. I guess he wasn't saying he cared in words and actions weren't enough so I was mega bitchy. (Normal for me with him). I wouldn't let him comfort me, which he was willing to do. And when he found out why I was upset he was really mad. (Not at me, at the friends dad).
I also remember once a guy called me a bitch and he lost it. Was going to fight him. I had to take him outside and away from the guy so he would calm down.

Odd memory

Watching tv and suddenly remembered the oddest thing about him.

Scary

Heard that some psycho killed a bunch of people in an area that he has family and visits often, he had talked about moving there. Looked it up and he was not among the victims. So scary, especially when I have no idea where he is. He could be anywhere.