I really need you right now. So upset and tired of the assholes in my life.

Still really wanting a cigarette. So very tempted to go buy some.

Thanks for making me so fucking horny I can't sleep without getting off! Between your voice, singing and speaking (that one gets me more, so sexy), that instrument you also play and your amazing ass, as well as your face you are always turning me on. Tonight seems to be worse than normal.

He is really fucking annoying right now and stressing me the fuck out. I really need some alone time or time with you. I know that I can't get that, but would so love it. Just you and me, one on one. 

I am really, really upset right now. And every time I make a noise at ALL he fucking stirs in his sleep. NO! I don't fucking want him to wake the fuck up! I want him to stay the fuck asleep! All he will do is irritate me more anyway.

Since Saturday and what happened then I have really wanted a cigarette. So tempted to go buy some but am  afraid that I wouldn't have just a few.

With the bullshit that went on today he will never be forgiven. I know he knew and hid it from me just like everyone else. You can't claim to love me and do that to me. Everyone showed me that someone else was more important that me by how today went. If I say too much they will deny it all. One day though.