I know I should be more rational with my thoughts, instead of flipping out. Some of the thoughts I had didn't even make sense, I know they didn't, things about friends, about work, so I doubt the ones about you were rational either. I know you have said you prefer/do better with face to face. I know this. Yet I want attention from you, and when I can't get it I crave any kind of attention at all. Sometime I think you do view things like this, but in the end I doubt you do.
Soon hopefully I will be able to get attention from you. I hope to show you something next time I see you but     not sure I how. Not sure how after last time.