What I heard that upset me, not sure what that was about. One of them knows about my situation, but the other seems shocked about it today, if I read her right today. Maybe I didn't get that right today, or maybe a few weeks ago was wrong.
Either way I had decided that I would let things progress as they come, but me back off a bit. See how the person act. That person acted just fine today.
I'm happy with how things went today. Even if it is innocent, and stays innocent. I am happy.

I am so tired of him being "unmotivated" to do things. Grow the hell up! You are a fucking adult and you have things you have to do, so go fucking do them. I'm tired of hearing this all the damn time.
He annoys me over everything and nothing. He needs to just go away.

If what I heard is true I will be seeing you fairly soon. Can't wait.

Saturday night I forgot about the girl who acted pissy with me. In line for the bathroom she acted odd, giving me odd looks, when talking to another girl and when she came out.
She had been talking to the singer. I assumed they were just friends as there was no flirty behavior on his part. But when he was on stage she stood up front and stared at him with a dopey grin. Looks to me like she has a thing for him.
If she saw something from him or he said something, or saw me look at him, she would see me as a threat.

I realized that it isn't 2 married people who have hit on me. It is 3. I totally forgot about the first one last May.

Went out to see a few bands play last night. Shortly after getting there the singer of one comes up to me and smiles, says hi, seemed like he wanted to try and talk but couldn't figure out how.
The rest of the night I notice that he watched me, sometimes he would smile. His bass player was really nice and he is normally a dick or at least was the last time I'd seen them (had never met the singer before). Can't be sure the bassist wasn't just trying to make sure the singer didn't see me when I walked past when he was nice either. When another band was being a bit goofy on stage and mentioned sex he looked at me. Once on stage to set up makes sure he has my attention and does goofy things. During the show makes eye contact, no biggie as he is on stage, that is what they do, but he wasn't doing it with others.
Okay, not sure if he was interested or what. Notice a ring. Boyfriend mentions today he is married, that we were invited to a party celebrating it a few months back when it happened.
Okay. Was he flirting/showing interest, maybe, maybe not, don't know for sure, but seemed like it at times. If he was that is two in the last month or two. What the hell?

I heard something today that I'm not sure what to think about. It could have been about me but I didn't hear enough to know exactly what they said. I don't know if it was good or bad either. Now it makes me paranoid about the situation I am in. Figure the best way to handle it is to just pull back, basically all the way. Not a situation I need to be in anyway, and not worth any bullshit. Not like anything was going to come of it anyway.  And I probably imagined or read to much into it in the first place.
I honestly don't think that I'm supposed to have happiness.

I know I would choose you over the other person.

I hate that I want attention from the people that I do. I know I shouldn't want one persons attention because of the situation but that doesn't stop me.

I'm so sick of him hearing what he wants from what I say, then making it up and getting mad when I correct him. Why can't he just listen the first time?

There are things he does that irritate the hell out of me. Depending on what it is and my mood can cause me to really get mad. One of those things is when he is planning to do anything, and he procrastinates. Whether it is getting in the shower, leaving the house, going to bed, going to sleep, whatever. And he can procrastinate over the smallest things.
Fucking God. Do what you plan on doing and be done with it. Right now it is leaving to run a few errands.

I have "crushes" on two people right now. They couldn't be more different than night and day. One is you, but you know that, you know how I feel about you, what I think of you.
This other would surprise everyone who knows me, well maybe a few wouldn't be surprised. I alternate between thinking of the two of you.

I can't stop thinking of you. Soon, I hope.

Had a fight with him. Told him how I feel about the bullshit yesterday.
Don't know if I am reading too much into something with someone or not, guess we will see.
He realizes I am serious about leaving him for you.

I so love when he is truly selfish.
He comes home, sits on his ass on the phone being annoying. I have no problem with him being on the phone, I have a problem with him being annoying, and a bit in general right now.
Then he finally gets off the phone, does he attempt to try and make dinner or talk about making dinner. No. Just sits in the chair.
I have to be up way early for work, but if I say anything he will have forgot that I have to work or that it is super early. Like fucking hell.

I get that dealing with depression is hard, and that dealing with a person with it is hard. But the people in my life ignore me and it. It seems they think if they act like what I said online when I mention how I am feeling wasn't said then it will go away, or maybe I will and that they won't have to do anything. I tell people how I feel, what I need and most do nothing to change it. Guess some of those people don't care.
One asshole I know posts ONE fucking comment about feeling less positive lately and he has tons of people on it, including the asshole who claims to love me. Yet I don't think he has said one thing to me about how I feel.
Are you fucking kidding me?

I should not watch videos of you as all they do is turn me on. Even when I just got off thinking of you.