I am tired of people making me feel this way.
Feeling like I don't matter. Less than others. Unimportant.
I knew I didn't actually matter or stand a chance. I knew over little things, over things so small that most would never notice, but they are huge to me.
I am done. I will continue to be polite, but I will do my best to be just that. Nothing more. In the past I have tried to get this persons attention. To make sure I got to speak with them when I saw them. Dropped small hints. And I had thought that there might be things coming back. But then odd things would be said or done. And things you'd expect to happen wouldn't. I kind of knew that I was likely reading things into things because I wanted to see them. I tend to do this sometimes, I know I do it so I can be rational about it. I knew this was a person who I was going to get hurt from. I am doing everything I can to not get hurt. If I don't back up, I will get really hurt.