I have discovered that when I want something I have a hard time asking for it, even if it is only in a fantasy. I feel like I don't deserve it. I feel like I am not good enough to have these things, or for people to do things for me. I know this isn't true, it is mainly when I am having a bad day, but at the same time I will never reveal who I talk about on here. He doesn't need to know as I'm pretty sure he doesn't care, and nobody else needs to know.