Crush

I find that I have a small crush on a guy I know.
I will not allow this guy to get to me the way so many others do. Nothing will come of this, so I need to not get upset over things that are just in my head. I have no idea what he is thinking, at all, I have to remember that and not get upset because I imagine something, or nothing.

Late

I couldn't sleep the other night. I thought of D. I wish he was with me. Even now, I wish he was here.

Surgery

I had surgery on my ankle about 2 1/2 weeks ago. Still on crutches, but finally got the stitches out today.

Jealousy

The dumb bitch that I know is showing her petty jealousy again. I heard the information days ago, but didn't put it together until today. It is pathetic and petty.
Maybe one day she will get it that nobody cares or likes her.
She deserves every bad thing that comes her way, it is funny that she is feeling insecure and jealous right now.

Him

I think I saw him at a bar near my house, working.

More Pain

I spent 8 weeks in a cast and then 3 more weeks back in the boot. The pain is worse than ever. Had a CT today and meet with the dr again next week to go over results and schedule surgery.
I will have surgery 3 times in a year.

Loss

Lost my best friends mom today.
I have no words for how this feels.