I have not been letting the negative thoughts get to me for a bit now, when they creep up I have been able to get rid of them until this morning. I woke up at 5 and couldn't go back to sleep. Just found out he woke me up getting back in bed at that time. Wow thanks. No I'm tired and emotional fucked up.

Baby I am so horny, all I can think about is you. I need you so badly, please baby.

I hate that you are upset or pissed off. I'd love to be there to comfort you. Know I am there for you in any way if you need me. Don't hesitate to come to me.

I've noticed some odd things lately. If it is you than it isn't odd. If it isn't you then it must look awfully odd to anyone else who sees it.

Last night he called me baby, a name I normally love, but coming from him I hated it. I came so close to telling him not to call me that.

I had such a long day. I just want to sleep, and cuddle with you. But you aren't here with me, and you aren't mine, yet. Hopefully that changes soon.
I have to work tomorrow, but it shouldn't be as long as today.

Thinking of you so much this week. Wishing I could have been with you today.
Trying not to let bad thoughts get into my head. Have to keep reminding myself that no action is not that same rejection.

It is taking everything in me to not say something to him. I am about to lose it. I have had a bad week, and he is fucking annoying. Yesterday and Saturday are always hard for me, we had the fight last week, so things are strained as is. He is annoying and has an attitude. He has plans to leave but WON'T fucking leave. I assume he is watching the end of a playoff game he has nothing invested in. NO, fucking leave. I want alone time, time away from him. He needs to go. He does this all the time. He plans to leave, we eat or whatever and then doesn't leave, he stays and stays and stays. NO fucking leave.
All I want is you. You here to comfort me, and hug me.

I need you here so badly. I would give almost anything to have you with me today.

Major fight last night.
In fact I told him to get out. We talked. I don't know where we stand now, everything is far from okay.
While to everyone else things might be normal to us, we know things aren't. I don't know how I would classify myself at this point. Definitely ready to move on.