I wish I could get the attention I want from you. I know you think something of me, but what you intend to do about it is what make me insecure.
I love the attention I am getting elsewhere, and will not give that up, even for you.

I'm so tired of him always deciding he should shower before me. Always.

You know what is fucking annoying? When I haven't slept well, and he claims the same, when I know he slept just fine.

I really hate that fucking smirk he gets when I am talking.

Timing is bad. I still think you are an asshole.
I don't know what went on today. It probably isn't as bad as I think. Probably wasn't you, but timing was so bad.

I've been doing okay enough with things lately. But when you do shit like this. I am so tired of everyone thinking you are such a nice guy when you are such a fucking asshole. You really have to learn to treat those who care for you better. In this case it isn't up to you to decide who is good enough.

Wow. I am really sorry. If you don't want me to like things then tell me. Fuck. I can even stop listening to you.
Remind though why you needed to do that? God, you are an asshole!

I've been pretty upset over something for a bit but I think I figured it out today.

Had a bad night last night. Over someone who should make me feel this way. Someone who is happy to see me. Misses me when they haven't seen me in a few days. Talks to me. Gets moody when I don't talk to them.

So he screws around online. runs late. Will end up being about 45 minutes late in total. After he is ready he stands around doing NOTHING. Just procrastinating. What the fuck is so hard about doing what you need to do? This is all the fucking time.
Then turns out he lied to them about what he was doing and why he was late.

He has to be somewhere in an hour. He hasn't showered yet. He is screwing around online. I fucking hate when he does this.
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Now is at 30 minutes and still in the same fucking spot. No change. No attempt to shower or move.
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He closes his computer. Sees the time, says shit and starts moving. Gee dumb fuck, maybe you should have been paying attention.