Alone

For a couple of reasons I decided to stay in last night, alone rather than go to either concert I thought about going to.
One reason was J. Nothing he has done, a little he hasn't done, that is causing some insecurity. I know if I saw him and it was different than I hoped or he wasn't alone I would be upset. More than I can handle right now.
Thinking again about another J and as always D.

Maybe

I used to have a band as the background image on my phone. J saw it one day and acted a bit off. He didn't say anything but it was obvious that he was mildly annoyed or something. I just thought he thought he thought it was stupid.
Now as things unfold with J, I wonder if it was something more. Maybe jealousy.