I'm so tired of that attitude. So over it. He really has no idea.

I'm so tired. I haven't slept well for days, plus I have a cold. I want to go to bed but I want a bit of alone time so of course that means he is refusing to go to bed.

Yesterday was my birthday. Wasn't a bad day. Wish you had been here with me though. Seems my favorite band added a small surprise for me in the order.
Had a small melt down last night while trying to go to bed. Missing my dad. Missing you. Wishing you were with me. Wondering if it is ever going to happen. Doubting it, knowing I shouldn't.

Finally had enough and put a stop to it or hope I did. If it isn't who I think it is, then I will change it. Had honestly hoped it was different than it was but that was just wishful thinking and deep down I knew better. No big deal.

He is so damn annoying lately. I am on edge so that isn't helping. I think he knows I am like this so he does things to annoy me. I have asked several times for him to not talk so loud, yet he persists on talking loudly. And when I say something he says he isn't loud. Bullshit.

Why does he have to be so loud with everything he does ans when he speaks? Really not in the mood for it.

Had a bad day yesterday but things were good. Just woke up from a dream feeling awful.
I feel like if you wanted me or liked me you would do something about it, you don't.

The other night I was lying in bed and was about half asleep. Started thinking about you, you snuggled up behind me, your chest pressed into my back. Suddenly I'm turned on and my nipples are starting to get hard.
I wish you really were here with me.