Annoying

He is so fucking annoying. One, he talks too fucking loud and two, too fucking much. He also talks when I don't want him to. He will wait until I am reading and talk, I pause, wait until he is done and start reading again and he starts again and this goes on and on.

blah

I am sick, plus pain. Got blood results back yesterday so have to see the doctor again, as well as 2 more. Woke up with a cold or something. So I feel blah. Have plans tomorrow so hoping to feel better.
Have a trip soon, hate trying to figure to what I need to pack.
Wish I was able to connect with him.

Bad night

I had a bad night last night. I start to go to sleep. And dark thoughts hit. I start doubting things that I have no reason to doubt. Between thinking of D (and what we had, and what I would like to maybe have again) and seeing someone recently and all those thoughts and the crazy he makes me. These two men combined can mess with my head badly. Along with thoughts of doubt that I know aren't true.